Love is...

Sorry our updates have been so sporadic; I’d like to blame it on being busy (which we are) but I think it honestly has to do with us being addicted to Criminal Minds. We started watching the show this summer, and when we got to Korea we began our obsession. I am not ashamed to admit that we have and do spend copious amounts of hours with our eyes glued to the television where Dr. Reed and Derek Morgan (and of course all the other cast members) send us to another world filled with behavioral analysis. I have been thinking about giving up the world of teaching since I am super awesome at guessing who done it. Genius right? I love this show for many reasons, the cast, Derek Morgan’s smile, Derek Morgan’s teeth, Derek Morgan’s eyes, Derek Morgan’s body….see where I’m going with this? Once you’re married, you can look and admire but not touch. It’s like the Metropolitan museum, I’m on top of current things

Anywho, sorry for the rambling, I guess some things never change. Though, lately I’ve been giving serious thought to seeing if I have ADD. I’ve always joked that I had it, but I’m beginning to honestly believe it’s a real possibility. I’m not ashamed to admit that I cannot focus on anything; I don’t thin I would have ever seen a doctor if not for how it interfers with my teaching. It’s so frustrating when a teacher, or even my favorite, when the prinicpial discusses something with me and I am unable to hear them do to the ten thousand thoughts running through my mind. I can’t tell you what it’s like when I walk away from a conversation, going “What?” I guess I understand my students better though. So, now that I’ve whined about myself I will move on to life.

Life has been great here, yet totally different. I don’t know why Jason and I assumed that when we got married it would be peanut butter and jelly (peaches and cream were way too clichéd). Marriage is work…. You have to figure out yourself and your partner. It’s no longer just about what I want. For some unthinkable reason Jason does not just say yes to everything I say (like the IPod touch 32GB I’d like). You have to actually be the support system to your spouse as well as yourself. I can honestly say that on some days it’s exhausting after “school mode” from 6am to 5 pm. I guess what makes a marriage special are those few moments where it all just clicks. When you’re laying on the couch, burping, scratching your butt, and that person just looks at you and says in all seriousness “I love you”. There are days that I find myself absolutely revolting and for someone unknown reason my husband loves me nonetheless. All I can say, is that since I’ve left the States (January 2011) I feel like I’ve learned so much about myself and about my relationships with other people. I have such better appreciation for all I have and it’s so humbling to see other parts of the world where people have nothing (literally nothing) and they still greet you with a huge grin.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that our lives have changed in many ways and will continue to do so but we are both grateful to all the people we have in our lives supporting us through everything.